A special day-You are the one that I love most

It never fails to amaze me how much this small island has gone through with years and one generation after another.In Taiwan, there seemed to be a bunch of events in the year of1949, the very turning point that the Communist troops take over Canton, China, but the military advance toward Taiwan was halted. I can still remember that it was the year in which mainland Chinese refugees took flights or marine transportation in order to shun the impending prosecution and autocracy performed by the Communists. As such, it is not difficult at all to make a conjecture that there must have been some heart-breaking stories revolving family issues, marriage or a mere relationship which was yet to be progressed.

This morning, I, as usual, woke up at 8 and was about to immerse myself totally in studies for the whole morning. Out of laziness, I took a short break watching TV and was given the timetable of the programs from PTV which I found my long awaited film "you are the one that I love most". The story was set back to 1949, as the government of Republic of China finalized its evacuation in Taiwan, many tried to get to Taiwan as a political shelter with their best in every possible way. Yun Yi, was a typical yet well-educated young lazy who was given a promise to come to Taiwan with by her senior at Peking University. Distance and cultural difference always makes one feel extremely nostalgic and often in a morbid form, homesickness. Yun Yi could not find any place to abide until she found a small factory that manufactures glass. She did not understand even a bit of Taiwanese which is predominantly used in the island and to her, everything seemed strange and uncertain. Working in the factory does not help Yun Yi possess any possibility of going back to China or to find back her senior. Year after year, she had waited for the senior too long to be accepted, under Chinese traditional concept, it was hardly possible for a girl or a lady not to marry a man before her 30s, Yun Yi was forced to marry to a local under the cruelty of conventions and was also bound to think of a way to make a promising future-to establish a family on her own.

Unfulfilled promises emerged in Yu Yi's head repeatedly until one day it had but all come true. 30 years later, Yu yi, as most of the family in Taiwan, has a seemingly sweet family, with a girl that studies at college. All inward desires to meet her senior came true through an unpredictable vicissitude that her daughter asked "Mom, can I invite my friends over to our house so that we can make a farewell dinner before summer vacation starts?" Without being able to predict her own future, she nodded with a smile that a mother would give her child unconditionally. On that evening, a group of classmates of Yun Yi's daughter came while Yun Yi was still cooking. "Hey, see who we brought here, our professor" said the classmates in a great glee. After everything was prepared and settled, Yu yi's husband asked her to come over and enjoy the meal with them as well as to greet the professor. The communal embarrassment between Yun Yi and her senior struck their hearts and both could not say a word. (This is the very scene I like how the movie was pictured. ) The following days, Yun yi had several reasons to meet up with her senior, but every of her thoughts was halted because of her responsibility to loving her family. For Christians, we might already have an answer of finale in our hearts that we cannot do anything with the unexpected. Friends, what would you do when you were not a Christian but had to choose between the one that has supported you for 30 years when you were alone though there was never a string that binds you two so intensely, or to go back to the one that you once promised and loved so much? Yu yi felt heart-broken when seeing her former lover that had planned their future, on the other hand, she could not just give up what she has, a supportive husband and a lovely daughter. Yun Yi crushed down crying and spoke to her senior"I have waited for you for a long long time""I know" responded he,"I did not make it to the last ship that was bound for Taiwan""and I had a difficulty surviving in China, and later I came to the United States for a living where I met my wife who died 5 years ago". It was a great pain to know they both did not make it and had to bow down before reality. (My heart breaks at every plot that relates to the entanglement of time and history)

Finally, her daughter found out the secret encounter of her mother and her professor on campus, but remaining silent was a thing she alone could do. "Mother, I saw you and my professor, what happened?""My dad is really a good dad, do you ever regret marrying to him?""I never do anything that I would later become regretful" answered Yun Yi. The next day, Yun Yi went to Yue Shan(Yun Yi's senior), and was asked and indicated that he would like Yun Yi to go back to the U.S. when he goes back. Again, a dilema was set between being a good mother of a family or the pursuit of her unaccomplished happiness. Anyhow, I thought Yun Yi would eventually went back with her senior, but the ending was pretty much a reversal. The day before Yue Shan goes back to the States, Yu Yin woke up dressing in the cloths which she wore while dating with her senior, but she changed back to her usual outfit. She left a note to her husband before leaving for her senior. The scene was pulled back to Yun Yi's husband reading the note she left with a wary heart. The date was the last one between Yun Yi and her senior."We have missed so much for the past 30 years, we have simply too many to talk about"said Yun Yi, then reached out her hand unto her senior's, you know I have been so fond of you.....
One of the saddest part in life for a husband is perhaps to eat dinner all by himself. Without his wife, he can only cook for himself and eat in a gloomy and dark dining room.
"We did not have a chance to say good bye officially, and let us offer our sincerest farewell before we depart,shall we?"said Yun Yi, I bursted into tears again, because this was not the picture I planned, and somewhat I feel some very similar regrets and pity that Yun Yi could not continue her unfulfilled dream. "I wish you the very best, out of my heart.."responded the senior.
Later, Yun Yi went back home thinking of the happy moments she's possessed alone with her family, a sweet daughter and a supportive husband who came to her when she was most in need.

The film was ended with letting the audience read the note which Yun Yi wrote to her husband "You are the one I love most... yi".

It took me a long moment to find back myself, as if I were lost in the great woods where there was no exit.

I simply love literature and films so much that I even want to earn a diploma for that. But utmostly, I know what is urgent for now, and I am working on that, friends, send me love and prowess with which I would not hesitate to move on to my next step in life.

Ways of thinking in other aspects.

It is always hard to find something to enrich my blog, in other words, at least to make it look more vivid. I happened to find a blog yesterday which revolves around life as a wife that serves a traditional Japanese family. Honestly spekaing, I really love the way Japanese people live and the way they think. Through learning a bit Japanese on my own, I was enabled to think of things in a seemingly Japanese way which refers to the system of the linguistic classifications, agglutinative language, which literally means, sticky language. I think Japnese people have great propensity on acting inwardly rather than to make their thoughts manifested. Like they tend to decline an invitation in an indirect way, or they tend to conceal their desires to do something no matter how much they want to do it, though the example listed does not show a comprehensive inclination that represents all the Japanese people. Also, we are able to find some clues when we analyze the vicissitudes of the verbs in Japanese. To eat, 食べる, to eat, which shows only basic information or a movement; 食べたい, eat not, that is close to British English while using a negative to make a denial; 食べられる, not to be eaten, the variety shows the difference between English and Japanese, in Enlgish, we make a statement of what we are about to do, so the main point or idea should be or needs to be put in the beginning of a sentence or phrase. However, in Japanese, all varieties and changes appear or stick right after the base of a word-inwardness; 食べたがってる, very much different from English or Chinese even that we describe a third person showing his desire to do something, we use a different auxilary subverb to consummate a phrase or sentence. All the grammar above allows me to approach to the core of ways to think of things as Japanese people do.

Asian studies

For many years, I've tried really hard to find what does interest me, and enormously enough to make me keep working on it. I failed to do that once, 7 years for doing things I don't really like. Shame on me, life is hard, yet we always manage to see many examples who led their life eventually to a spendid success. At this very point, I can't but wondering what was it that I did wrong in choosing something to do, or it was a merely a latent laziness that dwindled my passion and retards my schedule? Recently, I have been so bereft in great dilema of my hope to study medicine, partially because of some possible impending tuitions which I cannot afford yet, partially because I have made some assessment on my weakness and strength if I would succeed in handling that.Regardless of status, prestige or a good quality of life necessities even, I guess it is time to make a final decision at all. to be continued

I wish you love

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xNLNVRw343I

WISH YOU LOVE (Que Reste-T-il De Nos Amours ?)(Albert A. Beach / Charles Trenet)

I wish you bluebirds in the Spring,To give your heart a song to sing;And then a kiss, but more than this I wish you love.

And in July, a lemonade,To cool you in some leafy glade;I wish you health and more than wealth, I wish you love.My breaking heart and I agreeThat you and I could never be,So with my best, my very best, I set you free.

I wish you shelter from the storm,A cozy fire to keep you warm;But most of all, when snowflakes fall,I wish you love.I wish you bluebirds in the Spring,To give your heart a song to sing;And then a kiss, but more than this I wish you love.

And in July, a lemonade,To cool you in some leafy glade;I wish you health and more than wealth, I wish you love.My breaking heart and I agreeThat you and I could never be,So with my best, my very best, I set you free.

I wish you shelter from the storm,A cozy fire to keep you warm;But most of all, when snowflakes fall,

I wish you love.

From the new world

Just today, I met up with a friend online whom I have lost for years. It was a thrill to be able to talk to that friend again after so many years. It made me so warm that despite so many years of separation, we still have so much to talk about, nothing is more enthralling than to have something in common with the one you care about.

Listening to classical music was my all time favorite and priority in Life, but ironically, the reality in life always keeps me from approaching them closer which left nothing but a bit sense of regret. We analyzed the repertoire"Symphony no.9 from the new world" by Antonio Dvorak, its melody was often heard as we attended chorus lecture at primary school, Nostalgia, a reference to the major melody in the second movement. What does this music allude to as we listen to that? Does it have anything to do at all with the purpose of my writing this aritcle?

Separation happens in life all the time, to a micro point of view, particles separate in order to make a molecule complete. Apparently, separation does not replace the word "Loneliness" in biological world. What grieves me this morning, was to talk about the vulnerable future that people in minority could have. Yes, too often are we so fragile when it comes to making some critical decision under convention, and so is science. And too weak are we to fight for the way we want. For centuries, science was a mere byproduct of religion under the tyranny of Catholocism. Science failed to make a breakthrough just because the tradition told people not to allow it. In a close sense, friendship fails to develop as people put simply too much emphasis on tradition. I sigh over the time I have wasted, I sigh for the dying seed yet to grow into the most beautiful flower in the world. Yes, there is just too much to tell in a concrete way. Too much to say, but we put all waves and mental turmoils in disguise. I am grateful to finally have you come clean what happen between us,without hope, our faith does not fail, without prospective, there comes no disappointment, what was left behind－a genuine bless with sincerity.

I recall my childhood, which was built on uncertainty,real time adversity seemed there was no way out for a glowing future. I think that was how my personality was cultivated with.

The above seem to be several bits of fragments of memory and feelings. Scattered, and vulnerable; these are what I could alone remember.

I particularly enjoyed the conversation we had this morning which best explained the why which has been left in my heart for years. Friend, God gives everyone of us a chance to find the purpose of life, I sincerely wish you every bit of happiness.